What's Our Purpose: Find your way like a Dame
Have you ever felt that you didn’t know where you belong in the world? The whole “why am I here?”… Well it’s a pretty shitty feeling and that’s how I was feeling. I quit my job to follow my passion of writing. It’s been a month already and I’m seemingly lost in my decision. I have never not worked... I have never been without a job this long willingly, and it is really fucking with me.
Week one I was pumped and super excited to finally be following my dreams. I went through the feeling like I was on summer vacation, staying up late, sleeping in, and just going through my days haphazardly. Once I got that corrected, I wrote about it and started getting to work. I was finally able to get one of my visions in motion, the Krave Keto website and Youtube channel while keeping up with my Dame in the Life. This was all while fully intending to untimely start and finished the book ideas I have been compiling over the last couple years. I saw people be successful on YouTube and heard stories about people making money on targeted blogs. "Don't worry, it's easy. Use key words and you'll be fine.”
Week Two & Three:
Let's make a video... And a blog... and post four times a week on a scheduled, while taking Fiverr orders to write articles on topics that I am not particularly well versed in. All while trying to make some money. I felt like I was spinning my wheels. I had a plan but I didn't feel like it was working. I was only working on my blog and video content, not the writing what I wanted to. I just still wasn't feeling the fulfillment I was looking for. I was constantly reminded to give myself a fair shot before I throw my hands up and go back to a normal 9 to 5.
In truth, I've always just wanted to write to share my knowledge and possibly help someone in the process. I also wanted to share my stories. I have so many fictional book ideas that it’s kind of crazy. My whole intentions where to continue blogging, while working on these stories ideas. I have gotten so caught up in the making money aspect of it, that I haven't written one word. In four weeks, I haven't added to any of my stories.
I am totally questioning myself in my decisions. Should I go get another job? I know I can. In the field that I was in with the resume I have, it wouldn't take but a phone call. But here I sit, recording videos hoping for what? Be a celebrity of sorts? Do you see where the questioning comes into play…
When I was at work, I accomplished tasks. Actions that I could check off and mark them as done. Aside from my continuous posting, I am no longer satisfied with these accomplishments, and I don't know why. I am finishing things, but there is not that end of the day feeling as tasks being completed and maybe there won’t be with writing.
With all that being said, I have decided to focus on what I had starting out planning to do in the first place. Write my stories and continue with my Dame blog that I have been doing for years now. I will task myself with writing 2500 words a day, and two post to Dame in the Life with topics, well, such as this. It isn't going to get anymore "day in the life" than this right here.
I am going to stay focused on my new task at hand, and keep the positivity in the forefront on my mind. I will be keeping up with of the completion of my word count and revisit my tasks weekly to stay on track. Hopefully, before I know it, I will have my stories completed. It is time to truly follow my dreams and make this a reality.
Written By: Megan Nikole
Just a Dame in the Life